THE SEED OF SELF-DESTRUCTION

January 15. 1966

Yada extending greetings and making reference in his language to the Sun.

He continues: We had great love for this word of creation. In the beginning we did not worship the Sun as an idol, but with the knowledge that it was the source of all life everywhere in existence. It was only after the fall of my civilization that the people took to idol worship and making sacrifices to these idols. That is when man lost himself and would return to the animal state.

          Audience: Are we getting closer to the danger point?

Yada: Yes, of course. You are walking  - the world is walking a very narrow edge between survival and total destruction. The sad side of it is that this destruction to come will leave nothing to continue with in the earth life. In other times, of destruction the land was not destroyed. People destroyed themselves.But the stage and the setting remained, though it was often torn up by natural forces. It was not left uninhabitable, which is what could happen in this destruction. It will be total!

          Audience: Several years ago you mentioned that atomic war would not take place. Is atomic war possible now?

Yada: Yes and something more. Man is a clever being.

          Audience: So cleaver, he outsmarts himself.

Yada: Very often yes. He may and very likely will find a way of war, widespread war in wich he will destroy himself, but leave the scenery behind. He may do it by the use of sound, and thereby save the earth from being made useless by atomic radiation.

          Audience: If he used atomic radiation, it would be a long time before evolution can do anything, if at all.

Yada: That is right. At least 5000 years before the earth would be anywhere near proper life again – and as you said – if at all. Nature has and will in the future let loose tremendous quantities of energy. It does this in a storm, but in such a way as to be beneficial, rather than harmful to the earth. After a storm, the condition created in the atmosphere are of tremendous benefit to all living organism. Quakes release vast amount of energies. It would take several bombs to let loose that much energy. But when nature does it, it is in such a manner as to be beneficial. It takes the fire out of the forces. You get force and light but you are not getting the vast quantity of heat, which cremates things.

When my civilization was destroyed, it was destroyed with all the violence and properties of atomic power and caused conditions in the atmosphere, which prevented light from being….. What do you call?

          Audience: Did not penetrate?

Yada: Yes, but the reason it didn’t penetrate – diffusion – it was not spreading by diffusion and refraction. Why? Because there was no atmosphere to produce light. If you get into the upper spaces where the light cannot strike an ionosphere on upper atmosphere, you get no diffusion, so you get no light. And so it was on the earth at that time – the change in polarity of the earth destroyed the atmosphere. In time I learned it was not all over the earth, but just in my particular section of the earth – the Himalayan Mountains. On this side of the earth, everything was allright. And it is the same with the story of the flood.

The world was not flooded. It was just one section where the ancients existed, mentioned in the bible. There have been greater floods in other parts. It has never been the entire earth. The earth has suffered many disasters, but never total destruction. Had it been, there would have been no coming back, no returning to the laws which governed the world before the disaster took place.

I say this about atomic war – total atomic war would be worldwide, would affect the entire globe such as no disaster has ever done. Also – the destruction could be so great as to shift your earth out of its present orbit and either brings it into the Sun or projects it further away from the Sun and destroy it by lack of heat.

Any destruction will bring equal activities on other planets; forces felt on other planets and could cause widespread disaster to the whole solar system. Like chain reaction. It may not affect the galaxy but it would affect the solar system. It may affect certain sections of the galactic system and lead to entire galactic disaster.

You had tremendous disasters here both in Lemuria and Atlantis. You had – what amounted to total destruction. That some people survived it is surprising. But they did and continued to reproduce themselves, mixing with other races of people.

My civilization) Yuga) was destroyed and its effect was widespread, killing millions of people. The majority of them – instantly. Some survived, but in a complete form of darkness. And it was while in this state that man acquired his story of devils and evil forces.

There was much praying going on. Man needed a savior. He called for the Sun. The Sun descended from heaven – or returned to earth as a light. The light was then taught as being wisdom, for light dispelled the darkness of ignorance, or those living in darkness created the ignorance.

In the Bible it says: “For God so loved the world, he gave his only begotten son to save the world.” It did not mean another human being. The human being came after the experience of darkness when passion plays where presented in which an individual was chosen in the secret schools to play the part of the Sun returning to earth to save man from darkness.

Darkness is death. Ignorance is always death. When we understand these things, we get an entirely new picture than the bible says.

          Audience: The bible is an analogy.

Yada: All the talk of the man Jesus is parts of the rites and rituals, which took place in the secret temples. In later times these mystical schools spread from India to Ireland, Egypt and Persia, but they had their origin in the Himalayan Mountains after the disaster.

The trouble with prediction what is going to happen on earth is that so much of it – if not all of it – depends upon man and his attitude or his change of thoughts and feelings. Man is probably the most unpredictable of all beings in the matter world. He is in a constant state of uncertainty as to what he wants.

So it is either a very smart man or a very ignorant one who tries to predict what is going to happen to mankind. And I certainly lay no claims to being that smart. I may be that ignorant. But my observation of man through the centuries has made it plain that man hates himself. He is like one who is in constant pain he seeks some escape from, and he has come to believe the only escape is death, suicide.

It is only the very intelligent person who has come out of that kind of thinking because they have come out of hate. They see that the only escape from man is to return to sanity.Man cannot do this until he finds out what it is that drives him insane. It takes work and patience, time and love.

          Audience: The insane does not know he is insane; therefore he does not want to change.

Yada: That is the trouble. Speaking of images, looking at reflections in the mirror – man has an ego to satisfy. And as insane as that ego has made him, he still likes his reflection. So this is a good thing, for it is probably the thing that has saved him from total destruction.

Man has destroyed himself five times, but he did not destroy the earth. This was his saving grace, because he did not destroy the stage upon which he must act. But now he is in a position where his most suicidal tendencies can lead him to destroy the stage. All who have experienced life on earth are now living in another dimension and struggling against the possible disaster because it leaves no stage to return to where he can get greater understanding in the course of time.

There is nothing that I know of in your solar system, no planet, which is ready to produce life and sustain it. All the outer planets are much too cold; all your inner planets like Venus and Mercury are too close to the sun and much too hot. Almost as hot as the Christian hell, so they do not make a very good setting for man to work on.

The earth some 7 ¼ billion years ago was first spanned along with the galactic system – the Milky Way. After it came into being and became a proper place for life, it has survived all of the very great disasters it was heir to, in forming itself. But it so aligned itself with the Sun that it was immediately the proper point for life.

Mars was also very good – but somewhat on the colder side. But it grew many plants and animals and human-like beings. Then came chemical changes and in these changes, one of the disastrous results was loss of water. Water, being the most solvent of all liquids – there can be no real life without it. It is the main property of the material world, and to have life it must be found in sufficient quantities that will be lasting long enough to produce living beings.

Little by little Mar’s water evaporated. The evaporation was much faster than it was on earth. Some planets are colder by chemical changes than others, are faster in activity when dehydration sets in. A planet or a human being ages much faster by some rapid chemical breakdown. There is some water in the underground of Mars and there is some oxygen, but it is very close to the rocks, to the ground. In time there will be not even that much  - like the Moon. There is some water on the Moon but it is deep down and so little of it seeps to the surface that we need to even speak about it.

The lack of water prevents the atmosphere, which then prevents the ionosphere, which then prevents the radiation from being diluted when it strikes the planet. The upper atmosphere is called ionosphere only because the radiation from outer space bombarded it and in doing so filtered the radiation and filtering out most potent particles.

This is your saving grace on earth. You have the heavily blanket of atmosphere, and only occasionally is the upper atmosphere rented through to let in the earth more potent particles than it does other times. It can be one small amount of pure energy that can be disastrous. This is why it is natural to say that letting off atomic power in your world does not really matter because the radiation will go away after a while. But this is not so. You have to think about accumulation and you get much accumulation of very vital particles. You make it on your earth through your radios, X rays, radar, TV and you it upon yourself. Now add the atom bomb to that and you can see how badly affected you are by this.

The body accumulates radiation - what you call strontium 90 and this tries to take the place of calcium in your bones. This of course does not work and the Strontium 90 breaks down the calcium of the bones and then other tissues of the body and you inwardly burn to death.

          Audience: You spoke once of man’s playing with atoms and in breaking the atom he lets loose radiation forces – hatred, greed etc. I see a similarity between that and a man driving down the street. Someone pulls out and runs into him and then he in turn releases forces. The similarity between man and the atom, the blindness of both.

Yada: Yes. Man has a way of being moved unconsciously by his emotions. Coming from his feelings, and out of these feelings he creates attitudes that may move him into very negative fields of living, or out of negative fields. His experience may give him an understanding he could not have had without these experiences.

Sometimes we complain about what happened to us and something good happens.. We didn’t expect it, but we didn’t expect the bad either. This is when we are living blindly. We are moving blindly, being a robot, automation.

Come a time when we must learn how to move consciously, so we will know what the results of our actions will be.

          Audience: While I am interested in the world, I am more interested in what I am doing because I can control this – using equal abilities. What “I” is using it?

Yada: This is difficult to say. It depends upon what you think about what you are doing. What do you really think? Most of the time, few of us think. We only think we think and this is not enough.  Thinking knows in advance what results certain forms of action will produce.

If I hit this table, I know I will produce a given number of vibrations, which you call “noise”. If I also know that by producing this sound I also create discomfort for someone, then I will not do it. If someone in the room has their nervous system upset and would respond to this noise in a negative manner it would irritate them. Knowing this would it not is a sign of intelligence for me not to do this

How can we go to another and tell them what they are doing, what the results of their actions will be? When you see the results in a very negative manner and you know they are involving themselves in a very difficult situation and will suffer for what they are doing – how can you tell them? You cannot! If they cannot appreciate themselves, they cannot appreciate you.

Maybe you do not like the sound, but perhaps their nerves are dead. So how can they   understand how you feel? It does not upset them. So why should it upset you? There is a lack of feeling because we do not know what is happening to another. We do not know what they are registering in this hurt manner. What pleases me might be very distasteful to another. There are certain kinds of music, which are detrimental to the nervous system. Other kind of music is therapeutic with properties of healing the body. So what to do? I must try to understand another, so I will not create sounds, which are pleasing to me and displeasing to them. I must find out what hurts them.

When you want to win another over to your way of thinking, you must first find out his way of thinking. This is called diplomacy. This comes from intelligent living. To be diplomatic shows you are concerned with others. And you cannot appreciate others until you appreciate yourself. What do you love? What do you appreciate? Don’t think it is what someone else appreciates. To have a sense of appreciation is the first step.

          Audience: To cause pain to another is inconsiderate, but if joy were the opposite, joy would be pain?

Yada: It is a form of pain because pain and joy are two sides of the same coin. There are people known as masochists, who love pain. But only certain kinds of pain. And this pain must be associated with something that happened to them in earlier life. If pain is associated with some other desire, perhaps we were made feel guilty of; if someone caught us acting out our desires and didn’t approve, it should lead one to enjoy pain, a form of self-punishment brought about by a sense of guilt.

And then there is the sadist, who gives pain for the same reason – because something happened to him in earlier life and became embedded in the mind as pleasure. To give pain is to give them pleasure. Again it is a form of guilt.

Man is a very sensitive instrument, registering his various experiences in a variety of ways. And later wonder why?? At some time, one person’s reaction can be offensive to another; and if he doesn’t wonder what started that person off, why he acts that way, then we misjudge and cause more trouble than that person could otherwise have caused.

To understand is to love. Why do you do what you do? When I know that I can no longer criticize you, nor can I really praise you, I simply know you act that way because of something that happened to you earlier. That is the way you are registering an experience, and now you are simply reacting to this experience.

          Question is inaudible.

Yada: Again you are acting out – you are responding to a former stimuli. But you have forgotten the original action years ago what you did about it. So you forgot you had the experience and you think you had a new experience? But it is simply recalling an attitude you had before. What was your attitude to an experience you had as a child? It may have been painful or may been enjoyable. But someone else, not being able to respond the same as you felt it was not the thing for you to do. And so they brought pressure upon you and these pressures produced fear, shame and guilt. Even though you thought the experience was pleasant, someone else gave you the impression it was bad, evil or negative.

Now comes a time, later in life, when you are faced with having the same kind of experience you were made to feel guilty about in the past. You have carried guilt feelings with you and it has changed your feelings and made abnormal desires out of what in the beginning should have been normal.

Man has two strong survival units: food and sex. If he is made to feel bad about either one of them, he takes an abnormal approach to them, which causes more guilt feelings; until he becomes so guilt ridden with negative thoughts that he ends up in a mental institution. And all because he was made to feel that way. It was sown to him by someone else.

Our imagery of childhood often comes to haunt us in adulthood. Just to know this is to know why we are here like we are. Then we can free ourselves from that condition if we recognize the abnormally of it. You see, abnormalcy is working outside of law. And this always causes pain because we cannot work outside the law.

I think of parents were given instructions about these things before they became parents, the children would not be contaminated by them. Guilt! Some parents say: “Don’t eat so much,” or “eat all of your food,” when the child does not feel like eating at all. It is literarily forced down his throat. So he becomes to hate food, and he only eats because he must. Not because he enjoys it.

He is driven to sex, not because it is natural, but because he must. So acting only because we must leads to abnormal acts. Then we do not care how we get rid of these pressures. So we get no joy from it, no joy from tension. And we find ourselves repeating, repeating and we cannot stop. So it becomes punishment to us instead of something normal, which gives freedom from pain.

Some women, because of their religious training, or mis-training become what is called ‘frigid’ and give only of themselves because they are told, “the Lord expects it of them to make themselves a reproductive machine.” They do it out of their duty to the “Lord”, certainly not to their husbands. Sex communication should be a happy thing and therefore a beneficial thing to both bodies. It cannot be beneficial to only one. We are exchanging our vital forces in the highest form of communication. But only when we appreciate one another, only when we love one another.

Poor sex communication is a very bad communication and one – or both parties suffer. There is an one-sidedness and the naturalness of life will not tolerate this. So we only hurt ourselves – we hurt our partner, we hurt those we associate with.

Think how wonderful it is to eat with another. We have understanding, or appreciation for. The food taste better. The digestive system responds better. Look what happens when we eat with anger. It turns the body sick.

To think how much more harm is given to the body when one is forced to sexual association with one we have no affection for. Houses of prostitution are houses of death. They kill. There is no understanding. There is no love, no exchange. It is one-sided. Does the male go away with a feeling of release? No! He only thinks he does. Until in a short time he feels dis-satisfied and driven to do it again. He has no one to share his life force with - no woman to love. He cannot get rid of the pressures because it is mental. Not physical. It is a thing called love and he has no one to share it with. How sad! How destructive.

          Question: Is this part of the suicidal tendency you talked about?

Yada: Exactly so. All because he acts and re-acts without thinking and produces more and more negative situations for himself.

          Audience: He attacks everything with “I can’t.”

Yada: This is because he does not want to. He is literarily committing suicide, trying to get out. Saying “ stop the world, I want to get off.” We do that every day of our life when we do not think.

          Audience: Man, in general, needs to be educated. But you said you couldn’t educate man. But I think you can.

Yada: Yes, you can, but only to the extent that you can educate yourself. It seems a bit irritating because you want to reach a greater number of people, greater masses, but you can only reach a few out of that greater number. So you might as well not have numbers.

          Audience: Numbers are followers.

Yada: Yes, while I am honored by your company and very pleased at the same time, if I fail to reach you as you want to be reached, I am not doing my job.

          Audience: I would disagree at this point in this respect – before I can say I am being reached – I must know what I want and why. I had better check my wants.

Yada: Of course. If, in your manipulating of me as an instrument to get the kind of music you want from me, you must play upon me to the best of your ability. Otherwise I will not give you back the kind of music you want. This means, you must bring out your thoughts and express them. If you find I am not responding and I should, then you must try again and play some more. Do not let me escape.

          Audience: Don’t worry. I will.

Yada: That is as it should be. A teacher worthy of its salt should never hold back from his student. He should be made to explain as clearly as he can what the student wants to know. If he does less than this, he is not being a teacher.

          Audience: Maybe we are leaning on you like a crutch and you have cautioned us that crutches do fail.

Yada: And have a way of giving away under the weight. We cannot get back from one another  more music than we are capable of plying upon them as an instrument. Does the Stradivarius prove better than any other instrument? No, the instrument is dead – it depends upon the player. If the player was good and understood music, he got excellent music from the Stradivarius. The instrument has the quality of being bale to be brought out by the player, but only to the degree of the player’s capability.

And so it is with us, with one another in our daily associations. We get from one another what we are capable of, by talent of communication – communication of thought to get their responses. So, you speak and I listen. And if you do not make understandable music to you, you must try again, Perhaps put the question in a little different way, because my desire is to reach you and instruct you intelligently.

          Comment: This of course is what I want to carry in this realm, teaching that is understandable; the ability to use what we know concisely. I know it is not easy to put into words. In the present situation I have been searching for some way to use what I know, to stall, moderate or offset man’s suicidal tendencies.

Yada: I do not mean to be negative about it, yet, I must be saying: You are not going to change man. You can only change yourself. Because it is yourself who is doing the living. It is yourself you call “man”, and until you instruct the man within you, you are not going to instruct the man or men on the outside of yourself

Life is not for teaching man truth en masse. Because en masse the learns nothing. He is a machine, en masse, thoughtless, destructive suicidal maniac – en mass. The world is a very large place of the fact that it seems to have been made smaller by the fine art of communication and transportation. But it is still a large world – nevertheless. Large by man’s inability to reach himself en mass. Man is no better off than he was thousands of years ago. But a few are. A few men and women are more advanced and these have saved the world from total destruction and ignorance.

These few have kept the many from going down the drain to pure animalism. The masses of men live mostly in their animal minds. This is why it is so difficult – if not impossible – to reach many people. When you do reach many, the numbers are limited because you have to do it one at a time.

What seems to be truth to me is not truth to another, because his level of comprehension is so limited. It is like a human trying to carry on an intelligent conversation with an animal. Many times the animal understands better than the human animal, because his love makes it happen. But man thinks or he thinks that he thinks. And so he tries to make decisions about what he hears and sees. And most often, he makes the wrong decision because he seeks only to satisfy the animal within him. And he throws away all the other food. He has lost recognition of spirit and of mine, the Christ within. He has lived so long in the animal self – he is lost in it. So if you, as a teacher, can reach even a few, even one in a lifetime, you have planted a seed that will produce many trees. And these trees will produce many trees.

So man grows by leap and bounds. And you, before you pass may think: All my efforts in this life have been in vain. I have only reached one or two and, my God, what a work, how fruitless.

          Audience: What goes on behind the scenes, we are speaking of teaching. Here is our stage, our actors who prompt and know they are prompting. Still back of this entire there is other thing that goes on.

Yada: That is what I mean when I ask if you can reach one. If so, you reach greater numbers you are not aware of – on both sides of the veil. You have stirred up a large world of action in other worlds, from the lower to the higher. That one has reached out and touched another and that one – another. But never have you reached the masses as such. There always seem to be so many left over – waiting.

But if you can accept the thought that teachings is not teaching something or someone out here, but teaching yourself – an extension of yourself. Each person you meet and that you reach and who is capable of reaching you, because if there is no exchange, there is nothing – then you have accomplished more than you can really see.

          Audience: In the teachings I am doing now I note that every time I teach myself as much more than those listening.

Yada: Yes, of course. And you know, teaching produces a kind of chain reaction. Perhaps you will die, which of course you will, and you may die thinking you have failed. But just look what can happen, perhaps many years go by and someone, who was once a student here and whom you reached, perhaps he produced children and they produced more children. Then someone along the line, maybe 30, 40 or 50 years later one of the descendents will say: “You know, my father said that his father said that. His father and he knew a man etc. The person speaking may also say: He was a strange character and somehow or another I don’t believe what he said was true.

But he said it with an earshot of another person and one of them, hearing what this teacher once said, steps forward and says: All right. That’s Truth. I know I want to hear more about this. The moment this happens you have gained immortality on earth, immortality through the truth you spoke a hundred, thousands of years ago. Again you have gotten recognition. Again truth has come to the surfaceby someone who could recognize it.

The person who scatters the words, that great-grandfather said so and so. He may not accept it, but he spoke within the range of someone to know truth and was just waiting for someone to act as a bell in his head – an awakening. It is like an alarm clock. It alarmed him into thinking again.

So your efforts were not in vain. The seed sown must sprout somewhere, sometime and it must die and re-sprout. There is no stopping truth. Once the seed is sown, it can never die. Not really! It may stand aside in a kind of suspended animation, but somewhere it will come to fruitarian. Most assuredly.

You know, in the pyramids – the great pyramids  - have been found seeds, wheat seeds, and barley seeds. They have remained there through the centuries – truth encapsulated. The moment they were found and put into the right culture, the right ground, they sprouted. Think of that! Laying dormant, waiting for recognition, waiting for the light. It was as though they didn’t exist for those long years. They were dead to the world – yet they were not dead. They were just waiting for the proper ground where they could be sown, waiting for the return of the light, waiting to come out of the darkness. How wonderful!

          Comment: All that could apply to usability; the seed of usability, once sown without anxiety will go much further.

Yada: Oh yes, I have said before that a true farmer, when he sows a seed never goes back and digs them up and looks at them and says: What are you doing down there? When are you going to get started?

No, you do not have to ask truth when it is going to educate, when it is going to enlighten. You sow your truth where you know it will do the best it can and leave it there. Someone is always hungry. They will find it.

          Comment: I think the most difficult thing of all teachings is to teach truth minus phenomena.

Yada: Of course. Phenomena are very fascinating. The priests used it many years ago when they separated from the original mystical school of the White Brotherhood and formed into a band, which became known as the priesthood. They practiced magic before the unlettered. This way they go a lot of followers. Followers always meant more wealth for them and more power. You cannot have power over an educated person. Only over the peasant, the uneducated. You have work to do, Sir. You can only be concerned with your work – not with the result of it.

          Man: This, Yada, is something that is coming rather rapidly – this particular understanding that the growth of the seed is up to the seed.

Yada: Yes. The growth of the student is up to the student, not the teacher. So, in your teachings try occasionally to say: “Listen to me, please. My work is my work. I am to teach you what think is the truth. I think is the truth, otherwise I could not be teaching you. What you do with it is your business. I do not care. Do not try to attach yourself to me emotionally. Listen to what I am saying and judge it for yourself. Examine it! Test it!  But never come back to me crying because I didn’t give you truth. I do not know what you think about truth. I only know what I know as truth. What I say – I mean. I am not going to change it at a later date. Truth does not change. Truth IS! A seed is a seed when it is a seed. When it becomes a plant, it is a plant. Not before.

          Comment: In my way of thinking I have never told a lie. I have only mis-interpreted the truth.

Yada: Of course. Everywhere I turn, as I experience life I sift my experiences by thinking upon them. Does my attitude to what I learn feed me, sustain me? If so – I have learned truth. If not, I have not learned truth. Do you believe what you say to be so? Can you imagine salespersons successfully selling and not believing in the product? Of course not. They must believe in it.

Why is so much advertising on TV so offensive to so many people? Because they recognize the lack of truth in what the ad is saying and it offends them, irritates them. It is the same way with the teacher of life if he comes to recognize that what he is saying is not so, he can no longer teach. He must withdraw. It hurts him and he knows it hurts the student.

I must accept, I must believe in my concept of life in order to give them to someone else. But it is still not important to what your student does with what you say. That is his business.

          Comment: Yes, it is better that way.

Yada: Yes. It will save you from a great deal of pain, a great deal of bad feelings. It will keep you from having a sense of security.

          Comment: And guilt?

Yada: That is right. You are the farmer. You are sowing the seeds. Where your seeds fall, you must know to be the right kind of ground, because you plowed the ground, you tilled it, put it in condition for the seed to take control of. That is their business. Love what you are doing.

          Man: I do!

Yada: I know. Otherwise we would not have this talk. That is so. You are sincerely concerned about your work. You have a sincere desire to sow the right seeds. That is all you can do.

          Comment: I foresee something in the teachings of another; there is no end to it, whether we are on this planet of any other real, it is endless.

Yada: Of course. Few men on earth – apart from astronomers – realize the vastness of human being. He is in many places in the universe. There are tens of thousand of planets capable of sustaining life.

          Audience: If man destroys this stage, he will have to rebuild it someplace else.

Yada: He is going to have to do it someplace else. I can assure you. Why do you think he is in the process now of leaping into space? He is going on the prowl for another home. He is looking for other land in what seems like trackless spaces. But they are not trackless in themselves, for one man gets into them and immediately have a track. And he will follow these tracks until he reaches his destination, which may be tens of thousands of light years away from your solar system.

          Audience: This is a little off the beaten path, but regarding hypnotic recall? I relived my entry into this planetary system. Once I miscalculated and hit a planet. But I rode this ship down and crashed into the planet Venus. But all the time the thing was in process I was controlling the ship I was myself and kept saying: “I can’t fail.” Even as I was falling I said: “I can’t fail.” But this is all I remember.

Yada: There are beings on earth where it appears they were born on earth originally – but they were not. They are descendents from or beings that descended on earth from other planets  - great light years away and got lost and cannot get back.

          Audience: I know a planet where beings walk upright – beautiful beings. They have four arms instead two – strange heads – red hair. I went to visit there one night and I was stopped and asked what I was doing there.  That was strange in itself. I was stopped – yet this planet does exist. I know it does.

Yada: Do you feel it is in your galactic system or out of it?

Comment; I do not know.

Yada: You see, there are different kinds of beings on planets, and some are not living on planets as such, with physical bodies as such, but rather in other dimensions. Because form of any kind is energy. These forms can be whatever the creator of them wants them to be. One can move in and out of dimensions by the process of knowing how to mold the energy, or the building blocks of life.

Because I exist in another dimension does not mean that I am formless, because no matter what, everything that exist exist in form. I may appear to you and seem to disappear. This may be upsetting to you. You may wish I didn’t do that. Then you think you are drunk, or you may think drugs in some way affect you. You say: “Oh I have hallucinations.

I do not like to be thought of as hallucination – for I have a reality, like you have a reality. Who knows of the one you are speaking to, who you have known since birth? How do you know his reality? What do you know of it? You say he comes from woman like yourself, yet, what happens to him seems to be different from what happens to you.

And this can be disturbing. You say: “He is not real. I just imagine him. He will go away after a while.” Or “I wish I could see so and so again. They were such nice people. I wish I could know what their realities are because they seem so well balanced. I feel happy in their presence. I feel content.

          Comment: For myself, I cannot speak of anything as hallucinations. It may be a form of dream. As you say, it is still a form and such, if I attempt to destroy it in my mind; I destroy myself in my mind.

Yada: Yes, of course. When one starts destroying another, he is – to that degree – destroying himself – because I am that other. Every thought I think of that other in my mind becomes that other.

          Audience: If I learn to love that other form – I learn to love my form, and also the other will learn the same thing.

Yada: That is right. There are many kinds of form – some that are not tangible to the physical senses. And so that person is a ghost or spook, or whatever we feel like calling them at the moment. But I think the more we give reality to ourselves, the more we will give it to others.

Why do you come, remembering that the moments you share with me are part of your life? You are giving me your life when you give me your time, which is why I always try to say  - your presence honors me. How wonderful. How well we get along with life – with ourselves when we think that way.

In your world are some children’s rhymes, one of which is an inner teaching spoken in a child’s rhyme is: I have a little shadow that goes in and out with me, and what can be the use of him is more than I can see. Mark used to recite this in his childhood, and for a time it was amusing to him. Then in later years he began to think of it in a more serious way. And so, the truth of that rhyme “I have a little shadow” first is that spirit within that goes and comes from life to life. Then later it becomes the Higher Consciousness. Here then we find out the use of it. We have discovered the use of it. The shadow has become the reality, the light.

          Audience: Then our experiences can become real, when we accept them as they are.

Yada: As they are! And the ore we try not to put sugar on them, the more comfortable they become. Sometimes truth is given to us as sugar-coated pills, and as we suck on them and wear away only the sweet surface, we suddenly find ourselves with something in the mouth as bitter gall. But if we keep chewing on it, the sweetness returns. And it is so great, so much sweeter, this surface sweetness, that we no longer spit it out. We digest it.

Sometimes life seems a vanity. In our despair we cry out: “It is useless. What is going on here? I don’t know. It is useless.” Right here, if we stop to think we have learned something. It’s useless to discover that much to be so, to get this recognition, that what we have been doing or saying, or thinking has a useless quality to it – we have learned something. And so we stop doing these things. We look for something that has use to it.

          Comment: I became quite interested in why I associate as this or that, as a body, as laughter, as anything. I want to know how it is I can be these things completely. I don’t have all the answers yet.

Yada: That is good.

          Comment: I figure it will be a long time.

Yada: That is what gives us reason to live a long time, for existing a long time. Once you have all the answers, that’s it. You have had it. Out you go. There was a man once upon a time writing a book. It was called “The Heavenly Discourse.” You read it?

          Man: I am familiar with it.

Yada: He speaks of one day he finds himself in a hall of mirrors. And then he learned the trick of it, so the keeper of the halls of mirrors kicked him out.

          Man: This I disagree with. If you get to know too much, you can no longer maintain yourself in this realm.

Yada: You can’t because you are too much belonging in another realm. Do not reach out for other realms. Get to know your realm first, thoroughly, as much as possible. Get to know the world you are in.  Love it! Enjoy it! Respect it! And then you can know other worlds.

          Comment: The other world will probably wait anyhow. No rush.

Yada: You can be certain of that. They won’t go away. Too many people, who consider themselves students of metaphysics, lose themselves in other worlds.This means they become patients in your mental hospitals.

Meditation! Again this is a personal experience and a personal work. You may tell someone about meditation and you may try to explain to him or her how to go about it. But it will do not much good. It is something we must learn for ourselves. So is everything else. Is this not so?

          Comment: We must be truthful with ourselves.

Yada: That is right. That is one of the first prerequisite for meditation. Phenomena! You may be caught in phenomena when you are trying to meditate. Physical phenomena may start taking place all around you. It is the invisible forces within yourself trying to keep out of meditation, trying to distract you. That lower self does not like you to let it go.

The ass within resents the Christ within. The lower self does not like to have you let it go. The ass within resents the Christ within. It resents it because that once you recognize the Christ, the ass dies.

The man Jesus, in going upon the cross, in suffering the agonies – it was the agony of renouncing the matter world. The agony of renouncing the ego, that crazy ass. It fights to get your attention. “Don’t let me go. You cannot live without me. I am your whole life. Think of that. If you let me go you will be dead. You will be nothing.”

Jesus on the cross did not cry out: “Oh, my God why hast thou forsaken me.” Because he knew himself to be the God he was talking about. He knew this. The ass, who did not want to be forgotten cried out: “ Don’t destroy me. If you do you destroy yourself.”

Knock knock, bang bang, every kind of distraction. Ghosts or spooks appearing, or palpitation of the heart, or gas in the stomach, or itching. Strange place itch you never itched before. All kinds of things happen to the physical self when you try to meditate.

This is why, before meditation, you must try to get your body surface as clean as possible. And in your daily life practice certain food eating like vegetables, honey and drink goat milk or coconut milk. Do not drink cows milk or eat animal fats at all, if you want to meditate successfully.

          Question: What about fish?

Yada: Fish is very good. But do not eat these things for one or two hours before mediation. If you feel hungry close to the time of meditation you can drink a little warm milk or fruit juice with honey.

          Comment: I prefer to eat after meditation.

Yada: It would be better. But meditation, in order to accomplish it better the body should be clean.

          Question: Is this the baptism spoken of in the bible?

Yada: Yes. In ancient times, the water was the  energies that were brought to the heavenly state in meditation. Here you have the true baptism by cosmic energy. Today you put the water on the head at an age where you cannot comprehend it. So it does no good.

Baptism should wait until the child becomes an adult and has been instructed to its nature. It is powerful suggestive. It is a hypnotic thing, reaching the inner self by suggestions, making it conscious of reality.

          Comment: Referring irritation of the body, I was very appreciate of it, It gave me a chance to exercise my ability to remove my attention……..

Yada: Wonderful. So you put your negative into a positive. By controlling the negative you reached the positive. Itching is often very difficult to ignore. It cries out to be scratched. But if you can ignore it by putting attention to some other parts of the body – it wills top.

          Comment: At first it was like the exercise where you blank your mind. And you do this by sitting and saying: “I am not thinking, I am not thinking.”

Yada: So after a while all you are thinking is not thinking. Yes, it is the power of suggestions. Could you keep these thoughts and work with them in your daily life. Do not let the irritations of the outer world control you where you are commanded beyond your ability to control. You are commanded to scratch them. That is what we try to do with our problems. Scratch them. They are that kind of irritation.

But we must learn to appease them in that manner, so our consciousness is never our own. We say that it is an accident, or it is a problem I have no control over. Sometimes it seems much more comfortable not to do anything about anything. But there is one thing we should always try to do about everything – STAYING AWAKE!

          Comment: Even the problem of the outside world are very good teachers.

Yada: That is right. You know, my friends, no two human beings can exist together constantly, in association with one another, without creating some form of friction. That is part of life – friction. We have to have something to work against. Otherwise we find ourselves in a vacuum.

Electricity or energy is created by some form of friction. We grow by pressures that try to hold us down, destroy us. We become strong by the pressures upon us and our drive to resist them.

          Comment: When I first decided to teach in this life, to consciously teach, one night I was awakened. I knew there was an individual in the room who invaded my physical body. I asked him to leave and he said ‘no.’ I ordered him to leave and he said ‘no.’ Then I used a gimmick: “In the name of the father, son and holy ghost.” So at this point he said: “I am the father, son and holy ghost.” I asked him what he wanted and I was told that if I continued teaching there would be pressures brought to bear I could not imagine. My answer was that I was fist my own worst enemy and they couldn’t do anything I had not already done to myself.

Yada: Yes. You immediately gave him the door but such an answer. It is like I said earlier in the story of the Halls of Mirrors. When the being entered there and discovered the trick of all, he was immediately kicked out. So we must keep guard on our doorway. Sometimes they come in by the lower psyche. Sometimes they come in by the higher psyche. They may pose as very high beings.

          Question: What distinction is there between what you call the higher and lower psyche?

Yada: The lower psyche is the sex center. The higher psyche is here in the middle of the forehead. The doorway to it is here. Sometimes you refer to it as the Third eye. Sometimes the forces coming through there seem  good. They seem beneficial but they meet up with the lower psyche and a battle ensues. The battle may bring harm to you. Psychiatrist call it “Inner conflict.”

Try not to let yourself feel shame and guilt. These are very destructive forces because they start when we are not aware. We do not know what they are. It is too late. They have become imbedded in us. It may take a long time to get at their source.

I think I am losing control of Mark’s body. Would you please excuse me? It has been my joy. You are so thoughtful to Mark and we deeply appreciate this. You know, my friends, without one another, to share our lives, we humans are truly lost. Our life here and hereafter. It is with purpose, with design. Think of the wonderful meaning of the word ‘friend.’ There is nothing equal as to love a friend.

We are truly blessed when we have a friend.

Thank you and good night.